Dec 28 2015
I dreamt that I was kissing someone else and they were just as good a kisser as you, if not better. I woke up happy.
You’re not so special.
That same night as I fell asleep, I imagined us in a tree house holding each other and I missed you terribly, it wasn’t about anything else, just us.
Sept 11 2015
For the same reasons I love the moon and the sea
The deserts vast baroness could consume me with its emptiness
It is unforgiving
And I am just a speck
Another, albeit larger, piece of sand just passing through
Unforgiving and unliveable
I want to spend the rest of my days here
Proving the more human side of my existence
Stripped away of my personality and quirks
The desert will reform me
Just like the ocean
And just like the moon
I am fated to live elsewhere and long for the emptiness only they can provide
The emptiness that my heart
And my soul
Relate to more than I welcome
Sept 15 2015
The human condition is inherently lonely the human condition is intrinsically connected
May 7 2014
Punch me in the face
Right in the jaw
Let my mouth fill with the taste of my own blood
Let the red drip from my mouth as I look at you
Let me become aware that I’m human again
Just punch me in the face
July 8 2014
my lips touched the bottle more recently than they ever touched yours
my lips tasted alcohol and its bitterness before i ever got a chance to see what taste lingers after parting from your lips
my lips are cracked and I see no point is remedying them since no one else going to touch them..
not any time soon anyway
Sept 18 2015
The sunlight was really nice and I fell asleep on top of him listening to his breathing
He didn’t know what he wanted for breakfast even though that’s why he came over
End of dream
Excerpts from Oct 30 to Dec 15 2015
Distance makes the heart grow fonder, so why the fuck did I fly to the other side of the world.
I want some proof that you weren’t lying when you said you were gonna be thinking of me and that you missed me already. I wanna know that you have been thinking about me because otherwise I’m just a fool for being such a fool for you. I guess that’s what I wanted though, to be a fool. I’m such a fool.
I asked you what this means and you said you didn’t know, do you still not know? Because I’m still asking…
What I regret the most is telling you I loved you when I didn’t…
I still like you but I don’t miss you. I don’t know what that means.
We have good memories, but I’m selfish and I want to make more of them with you.
You were the first and therefore the best and worst and everything in between and more. I loved you and I hated you and I needed you and I despised your company. I have little to compare you to, but I don’t feel like I need a ruler to measure against. I just want you. For now at least. Just us. For now. At the least…